I’ve come to admire older people
They seem to have figured out the secret to living well
Nothing gets to them or if it does they don’t show it
I used to get upset about every little thing
If the mortgage bill came in
I would stress over making sure it was on time, check my bank account 50 times a day to see if it cleared and if it didn’t I spend the next 40 minutes calling the management company to see when they would deposit it, then I would hyperventilate over when my next mortgage bill would come in. If I had enough in my account to cover the water, the grocery bill, my co-pay and any incidentals I hadn’t yet thought of.
Every morning I would get up and start this whirlwind marathon of getting ready for work and the kids ready for school. It always involved yelling, turning the radio up to 20, nagging kids to get out of bed, standing on the stairs watching to make sure they got in the shower, rush downstairs to get breakfast ready and push them out the door before they had a chance to finish.
By bed time I was grateful just to have them shut up for 10 minutes and I know they were grateful to have me go to sleep for 5 hours of peace and quiet.
Fast forward a few years
My house is quiet, the only noise is the refrigerator humming in the kitchen or the dog piddling around trying to see who he can wrangle to walk him before leaving for school and work.
There’s no loud voices, only a slow round of good mornings as we pass on our way to the shower, no radio blaring most days, although the occasional anime tune will break the silence from time to time before 7:30.
This is life in my world
Relatively stress free and easy
If by chance there’s some payment or appointment I’ve forgotten I pretty much shrug and call to reschedule or make a quick arrangement with apologies for the short notice.
No longer do I yell and scream
once in awhile a little agitated because I swear teenagers move extremely slow when they know they’re already late for something.
I love my world its slow and steady and it makes me feels not so out of place.
I’ve resolved that what ever happens will get solved one way or another so no sense in me getting all bent out of shape about it.
I’m pretty much looking at old folks and saying “So this is the secret to living better”
I wish I’d figured this out before my hair turned gray.